CHOICE

a much better life or vice versa?

I have a choice to make which I also don’t have the choice to make, sounds confusing right, let me make it easy

I have this choice that I should make but they’d decide for me anyway so why should I bother right?

I’d choose a much better life, because why not

so maybe I have a very successful life, successful failure to be exact, i love oxymorons because thats how my life turned out to be, a great ironic oxymoron

watching my mom growing paranoid each and every day, I know shes hurt but shes ruining my life, she stops me to wherever she is

my dad which is i dont know if he’s accused or it is the truth, that he cheated with my FUCKING cousin, what a family right, BULLSHIT

so how far would you go for money ayee, apparently shes willing to screw her aunts husband which her aunt, whom did nothing wrong to her, loved and cared for her from the start and she goes and flirts with her husband to milk some money I guess

I DON’T KNOW THE TRUTH

lets talk about the choice

my dad has his own business which earns more like a 100k a month and is planning to settle down in the US and petition me and my siblings for a better life

my mom who has a screwed up family, they refuse to progress, spends money like its infinite, and a nephew who screws other peoples husband, a big ass loud and warfreak folks that I can’t stand, my mom doesn’t have a job, she rarely cleans and cooks because of the maid, well if she isn’t driving please expect her laying down, scrolling through her facebook feed, sharing videos,fake news rather and believing in them, sharing all the godly stuff that are just for likes and shares, believes in chain messages, watching tulfo and duterte or playing some game on her phone, watching teleseryes at night and thats how her everyday goes

tell me which should I choose, look I love my mom but its just too much, she changed a lot tbh, she doesn’t listen to my daily stories anymore, she nags at me a lot well whats new, she doesn’t appreciate what I’m doing instead she notices every fucking mistake that I do

I don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t know if I’m mad but I just want to let it all out, these tears aren’t falling anymore because fuck this shit

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